Music In The Background

I don’t know about you, but when I’m working or cleaning, I really enjoy having music on in the background. When I’m in complete silence, my mind will wander and I won’t know what to do with myself. I get much more work done when I’m listening to music. It pumps me up and gets me excited to continue doing what I’m doing. It’s always nice to find little motivations like that in life. Whenever I’m feeling stressed, I will put some music on, take a break and just get completely lost in the lyrics. It’s such an awesome feeling.

I sometimes wish I could listen to music when going to sleep because I think it would keep my mind focused on something so I wouldn’t have those racing thoughts I get at night. I really have no idea how people do things like that. If there is as much as a tiny sound in the background, I usually will have a terrible time getting to sleep. It’s pretty crazy. When I’m really tired though, I can sleep through anything. Sometimes, just hearing someone talking from another room will irritate me or hearing someone moving around. It really depends on my mood though and how stressed I am.

What kinds of music do you like listening to when you’re busy? How about when you’re cleaning or cooking? I don’t cook but when I’m cleaning, I like to listen to Christina Aguilera and dance around, it makes cleaning up a lot more fun and rewarding lol.

Anger Issues

I have had anger issues from as far back as I can remember. Living with my mom was really hard for me and she put so much fear into me that I began to act out and do things that I normally would have never done. I felt like the entire world sucked and that everyone was bad etc, etc. It took me quite some time to come out of that. And while I’m not completely back to “normal” (If you wanna call it that), I still have my moments and I know that I have a lot to work on. Talking to people about things like this  is extremely hard and not something that I like to do, but I know at the end of the day that the only way I’m going to feel better is by working on it and being completely honest. I try to talk with most people but in all honesty, the only person I feel really safe talking to about this stuff right now is my boyfriend because I feel that we are close enough that he will listen and do whatever he can to make me feel better. I love being with him and I’ve never been happier. It just sucks that so much random crap is getting in the way.

Okay, so maybe I'm not THIS bad lol..

I really can’t wait to start talking to a professional and getting help so that my boyfriend and I can have time to think about things without all the outside pressure from family etc.

Should Celebs Be Better Role Models

This is a very tough question for me. At times I feel that, yes, celebs should be more responsible in their actions and try to do things in a manner that is appropriate for kids but at the same time, it’s not their responsibility. Seriously, it’s up to parents to teach their kids right from wrong and if a child or teen is thinking they want to be just like so-and-so, then there’s something wrong. Parents should be taking the time to make sure their kids realize that life is about being yourself and doing what makes you happy. Life is about learning and becoming your own person. If a child is looking to be “cool” or to “fit in” then a parent hasn’t been doing their job right. Of course, every child is going to feel this way from time to time but one of the main jobs a parent has in my opinion; and one of the most important, is teaching their child to love themselves and not just go with the crowd.

I think it’s alright for celebs to do whatever it is they do, and in order for parents to counteract the negative effects, they need to sit down with their kids and have good talks with them, explaining right from wrong. What happened to parents teaching their kids? It seems like nowadays so many kids are raising themselves and its sad! If I ever had children, I am going to make sure that they know they have me to talk to and they are going to know right from wrong. I’m not going to try to hide them from the world, because that just causes rebellion.