My dad was in Inpatient for 21 days and although I’m really proud of him for trying not to drink and trying to be a better person, I don’t know if I actually believe that he’s “changed.” He says he doesn’t feel the need to drink anymore and that he doesn’t want to ever do it again, but I just don’t know if I can trust him. The whole reason he went into inpatient was because he got a DUI and all of this stuff. So, how am I supposed to believe that he’s “better” or “different” when he was forced into going in the first place? Yes, I do believe him when he says he feels a lot healthier and he doesn’t feel like he used to when he was drinking all the time and not sleeping enough etc. I just feel like I don’t know him anymore. So much changed since my grandmother died. I just don’t feel close to him anymore and I feel like every day we are drifting further and further apart.
I miss the old relationship we had, which is sad because all of it was basically a lie. I mean, I was so young and thought my dad was this wonderful person and ever since I’ve grown up and since moving in with him when I was 18 years old, my whole outlook on life is different. Why can’t parents be what we think they are when we are little? LOL.
Well, I’m off to play my favorite helicopter game. Later guys!
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