Fears

I have a lot of fears, and I know a lot of that has to do with the fact that I have anxiety.

My biggest fear is of being alone. I can’t stand sleeping in an empty house, or going out on my own. I am getting better with it, but it just freaks me out. I used to randomly start balling my eyes out when my boyfriend would fall asleep before me. I am really proud of myself, but it still hits me sometimes.

Isn’t it crazy how much fear controls our lives? Here is a perfect example of that: there was this time I was driving on the freeway with my dad and my grandma. We were having a good old time, and then all of a sudden, we realized there was a bee in the back seat. I began freaking out so much and kept yelling for my dad to pull over. I literally unbuckled myself and was trying to open my door to jump out. Thank GOD my dad had locked the door just in time. I kid you not, I have no doubt in my mind that if the door would have been unlocked, I would have jumped out.

Lucky for me, since then, I have gotten a lot better since then and can even handle having a bee on me as long as I look away. However, I’m definitely not over it yet.

Now it’s your turn, what scares you?