Late

It drives me completely insane when people are late. It’s really annoying when people know that you have plans, they know what time and they’ve known for days and then suddenly they’re not ready or they forgot etc. Things like that I just can’t stand. It normally takes a lot to make me upset, but this is just one of my pet peeves. What about you guys? How does it make you feel?

Maybe it’s an OCD or anxiety thing for me too, because I’ve been like this for as long as I can remember. I will never forget how mad I would be if I was going to be late for something, like school. I would always freak out and even start crying. I’m sure it must be an OCD thing, because I’m not sure why else I would freak out.

Sometimes I even have dreams about being late and getting in trouble or whatever. Isn’t that weird? I just don’t think there any many people who can relate to this, because it just seems so over the top. I mean, in life.. You’re going to end up being late and you would think it wouldn’t be that big of a deal but it just stresses me out so much. Sometimes I can’t sleep at night because I’m afraid of being late the next day. I think there are just some things that make me overreact quite a bit lol.

Do you have anything like that that makes you freak out and you don’t really know why?

Dates

Are you in a relationship? Even though you’ve been together for a while, do you still go on dates? I really think dating even when you’re married or have been together for years is important. Dating is what keeps people close. You don’t want to live your life in a boring way. There are a few main issues that can occur when in a relationship with someone that can result in a break up. One of the main ones is not spending enough time together.

Dates are a lot of fun. I didn’t even realize that my bf and I were going out on dates until it randomly hit me one day. We always go out to movies, and go out to eat and things like that. Well, simple as those things may seem, they definitely count as dating.

My favorite thing to do with my boyfriend is go for walks on the beach or see movies. I have literally kept every single movie ticket stub so far. I have a cute little book that I made for the two of us with all of our special things in them. I have questions and answers that we have filled out about ourselves and each other, how we met, how we felt when we first saw each other etc. I love keeping things like this.

What kind of dates do you go on with your significant other? How often do you go? How much has it helped to keep you strong?

Fears

I have a lot of fears, and I know a lot of that has to do with the fact that I have anxiety.

My biggest fear is of being alone. I can’t stand sleeping in an empty house, or going out on my own. I am getting better with it, but it just freaks me out. I used to randomly start balling my eyes out when my boyfriend would fall asleep before me. I am really proud of myself, but it still hits me sometimes.

Isn’t it crazy how much fear controls our lives? Here is a perfect example of that: there was this time I was driving on the freeway with my dad and my grandma. We were having a good old time, and then all of a sudden, we realized there was a bee in the back seat. I began freaking out so much and kept yelling for my dad to pull over. I literally unbuckled myself and was trying to open my door to jump out. Thank GOD my dad had locked the door just in time. I kid you not, I have no doubt in my mind that if the door would have been unlocked, I would have jumped out.

Lucky for me, since then, I have gotten a lot better since then and can even handle having a bee on me as long as I look away. However, I’m definitely not over it yet.

Now it’s your turn, what scares you?

Popular or Nerd?

It’s hard to really know what I was lol. I’m guessing it depends on who you asked, but I really think I was somewhere in the middle. I wasn’t crazy popular, although at times I hung out with the popular kids but I soon realized that wasn’t for me because all they did was talk bad about everyone and talk behind each other’s back. I just couldn’t handle that. I always thought the kids on the “nerdier” side were way more fun, more honest and just better people in general. Also, they were a lot smarter lol. From my experience, all the popular kids ever talked about was either gossip or sex. It was just boring. How much can you talk about the same topics? Hehe.

I have sat with so many different types of people in the lunchroom. I have sat with the total nerds, the most popular kids in school, the Goths etc. I honestly felt like I fit in most with the Goths but they were a bit too intense for me because I was so innocent. Now, I would sit with them lol. They were so funny and just awesome. I dunno.. they just didn’t care what people thought and did what they wanted. It was really refreshing compared to the popular people.

Who were you in high school? (or whenever) Do you think you fit one mold or did you fit many? Or, did you not really fit anywhere; but your old clique?